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Chaos, Ghosts & Shadows

by OctoberFamine

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1.
Monster 04:27
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Slowly burning out I feel you in my heart Shadows crawl about Finding my way in the dark Lost – forever lost Down these halls that never end Ghosts in bodies talk Invisible and thin When you going to hear When you going to see When you going to taste When you going to breathe I can’t see why So many monsters live inside They dragged me away into the trees and breathed in me – new life Like an empty thing that never really lived before – never really breathed They took my hands and guided me away – so far away Into a place where I began to love the monster I’d become…
2.
Not Alive 04:43
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See them die there – homeless in the night Walk on by them – just don’t look in their eyes Keep on walking – keep your purses near They’re demons stalking – you have a right to fear Pick up your pace and dream of home And dream of all the things you own And close your eyes and close your mind And close your heart as you walk on by And close your eyes and close your soul And everything you see will go They are not real – they cannot feel So does it matter if they’re killed? They’re not alive (You’re not alive) See those lovers – the love they have’s not right Loving each other – out in the broad daylight Sick & decrepit - they have no right to live They’re all infected and they’re out to get your kids So close your doors and pray to god And close your heart and call it love You turn your back – when they’re attacked Your guilt of silence – a murderous act You wash your hands – you wash your soul You wash your guilt for the lies you hold You think they’re wrong? You think you’re right? You think you’ll go to heaven when you die? They’re not alive? You’re not alive.
3.
Agni Yajna 05:47
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In a hole down in the earth (love and dreams beside me) I cover up myself with dirt (love and dreams are all I need) So I don't have to feel this hurt… (we are the brokenhearted) In a place inside myself (love and dreams dancing free) all these things are never felt (love and dreams consuming me) leave behind this empty shell (days of pain and love and rain) In this land of rich and poor I don’t want to feel no more… a drug that turns men into gods we are the forest and the fog and in this world we live between who we are... and what we dream (dream 'till I find you.) In a field so far from home Throw away my skin and bones This is all I’ve ever known… We are the brokenhearted Lovers blood is made of fire...
4.
Page 32 05:47
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here among the insects and amphibians of the night her body like a shadow moving so very soft and delicate through the brush and thorns she walks along the rocks balancing herself with her arms red hair dancing across her shoulders and brushing each cheek acts as if i’m not here “I am you and you are me.” she whispers the words smiling down at the water that reflects her image back up at her and finds a spot at the lip of the cave where she sits watching the rain as it begins to fall filling up her footprints across the valley floor “I am my own and you are with me. Take me away with you.” she whispers in a sing-song voice the words drift down from the cave to where i sit beneath the tree in the rain the rain is another voice “We are together now.” ….always together…” i watch as she smiles and spins the rain swirling around her thunder filling the world and the lightning filling her eyes “Sing with me…” and i walk over to her her face and arms up towards the sky “Sing loud! This could be our last day! Hold it forever with me…” closes her eyes as she reaches out straining her arms as if hoping to brush her fingertips against the stars “Dance with me tonight…”
5.
Hollow Dream 04:26
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Keep your back against the wall Close your eyes and let it fall Whispers drift down from the sun Dream of golden fields – forever run I drift away No one’s around Nothing in pain There’s not a sound Who holds the key – let me sit upon your knee Whisper me the story of this man’s own hallow dream If you could replace me I would want to be alive Somewhere in that place beyond this haunted lover’s lie Ocean blue, forest green Somewhere in you not in between Waiting… where lovers wail Saving… he rose and fell Darkness… this fragile shell Starlight… the secret spell …keep your back against the wall…
6.
Drowning 02:51
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Acting out – waking up Trying to live with my lies Reaching out – falling down All of my friends they have died And I keep my eyes looking forward But the end of it’s all that I see And I don’t want to be this person I see And I don’t want to drag you down with me So run away – don’t look back Just run away – fast as you can Falling out – feeling down Sometimes it’s so hard to try feeling this – knowing that someday you will say goodbye and I keep my face in the blackness and I keep my soul in the dark cuz I don’t want to see this reality and I don’t want to show you my heart so run away and don’t look back just run away – fast as you can drowning in the shadows – behind the sun falling through the mountains of nothing done
7.
Moon & Shadows 04:46
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There is a light out – way out in the dark I see it shining brightly deep inside your heart Sometimes it goes out but it’s always there Maybe no one can see it clearly but I don’t really care Cuz it’s all I need / all I need to see you It’s all I need / all I need to see you with You may sit in the silence but I hear what you say We don’t really need words between us – they just get in the way Let them take it for granted - Let them walk in the sun the moon and shadows – where nobody comes wine and phantom shapes at random walking silent – drifting by it walk together – slightly severed from the hour’s poisoned flowers you and I walk through the night with all the world beyond you and I walk through the night and all the world is gone moon and shadows fields and meadows silent battles creaks and rattles
8.
Something Pure 04:24
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Everyone's got opinions on how to live They say I can't be the way that I am I'm just like you, just a man who finds his way Looking for love, no matter what they say Everyone is judge and jury, laws they have to tell They say my life is wrong and I will burn in hell Who are they to say - are they perfect everyday? Who are they to say I'm wrong for living my own way? Everyone lies and everyone dies closing your eyes / lie and deny we keep our heads up high and look up to the son (sun) till we are blinded by the guiding light above we keep on walking by afraid of the unknown we keep on hiding here inside our safety zones and if my love is wrong / I don't want to be right I've got to live my life I have no choice I can only be me I cannot take your voice I've got to be myself Can't be anyone else I've got to be myself Can't be anyone else and if my love is wrong / I don't want to be right lover / liar / hatred & fire Everyone lies and everyone dies closing your eyes / lie and deny lover / liar / hatred / fire
9.
These Eyes See Sorrow 04:02
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close your eyes and dream you're hallow do you see yourself in there deep inside that fragile body lost inside where no one cares you're feeling so pathetic but I am standing here I'm just like you, a loser we're all gasping for air and the dream it seems so perfect when I'm looking in your eyes but is there something evil behind your whole disguise these eyes see sorrow... living in another body i see out through your eyes it's ripped and torn in pieces soul becomes a lord of flies your hand is always hurting your wrist is always stained your face is in the shadows that's how we take the pain and i see and know your reasons but it's never quite so clear you have this wall around you and nobody gets in here you're my reason to live and you're my nail and cross these eyes see sorrow... you're my reason to live and you're my nail and cross
10.
The Perfect Seclusion Of A Separated Mind 02:39
11.
Useless 02:45
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I try to live but life gets in my way I try to love but it isn't you I blame Here in my heart I'm stumbling in the dark Losing my way, over and over and over again... It's useless... I see the world behind a wall of glass Sitting on my ass I watch it all go past Every little piece - it sinks and cuts in deep Try to pull them out, over and over and over again... It's useless...
12.
Safe 03:29
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i saw the pain - inside your eyes & saw a place where a dead heart lies safe from the pain of life safe from the pain inside i saw a truth you wouldn't tell beyond a wall you held up so well safe from the pain of life safe in your little lies safe for a little while safe like a little child i saw a love you couldn't speak inside a heart that you put to sleep safe in a little dream safe from your enemies safe from the things you've seen safe now from everything you had to die... this last note you left words read after your death lost in your final breath all this in sadness you waited with your eyes closed held me in silence and dreamt of your great unknown you had a life I never knew a lonely place in a darker room
13.
Silent Friends 04:53
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You tuck me in then you smile Keep the door cracked when you leave Everyone waits in the dark Crawling silent under my bed And I hear them silently I hear them singing to me I hear them breathing I hear them calling my name I hear you walking the halls Whispering words to yourself Inside this room feels so small Outside my window – a voice And I hear it silently I hear it singing to me I hear it breathing I hear my silent friend There is no one else around Here in my head I can’t be found I see these faces in my mind I leave this real world behind I wonder who can it be Which monster will come for me The silence fills up my room I wonder if it’s really you
14.
Being, Becoming 07:48
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dreams are your mind - they are not mine falling and running - so far behind so long we've been dreaming but we're standing still being and becoming... something else... waiting so quiet - the night's so dark hearing the silence - inside my heart all the lights are so far away and there's a distant sound angel’s wings on a devil's back now I'm off the ground... could you love me no matter what face I wore could you love me like you did before... I'm all alone... with this heart on my sleeve I'm all alone... please don't leave... Life stands at the door in a constant movement. never looks back only attacks Life looks at itself in the face of the future. never hopes for perfect order… ahhh… Life stands at the door In a constant movement Never looks back Only attacks… Chaos, ghosts and shadows (turning... like no other... turning…) Dreams are your mind… they are not mine Falling and running… so far behind! so long we've been dreaming but we're standing still being and becoming... something else... I MUST BE LOST HERE (x4) so carry me away... away into the night my skin's becoming gray... my eyes are turning bright. being... becoming... something else... being... becoming... something else...
15.
Wars for Jesus 03:20
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Rape the land – rain bombs or napalm Shred the soil – mixing blood with oil Holding all the weapons and think you’re holier than thou Starvation and suffering are the jewels on your crown So go ahead and start your wars for jesus I’m sure that he needs 10,000 dead So go ahead and start your wars for jesus Shed his blood so you could spread bloodshed Godly man taking legs from children Bomb the kids - it’s all god’s will Using all you can to justify your soul is lost Christians with their hands of blood holding a sharpened cross
16.
Dark Earth Spirit (bonus track) 04:27
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Terror & freedom defined faith is a cage by design you will decide all of the earth will abide carving your face like a beast god is the whip you unleash never to cease wearing the war you call peace everyone goes and everyone follows (who are we now?) Keeping you close to its tits the whore carves your cage till it fits feeding you lies keep you smiling while you die running the race of the game all of them one in the same taking your voice you don't really have a choice... NOT / TILL / YOU / BREAK / FREE!

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Dark Earth Dream Music, bellowing out sighs and whispers in the dark forests, echoing silent ghosts in each of our souls.

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released January 1, 2008

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OctoberFamine (OF) is new wave dream music. We are not trying to fit into any mold but to create something that is true to our nature. Often we dig into the roots of pain and pull out simple beauty. Other times we contradict ourselves to construct the landscape. The paths are quite different from stage to stage. We stand up among the obscure but we also feel quite at home among accepted normality. ... more

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